beautiful

I've always been that person who likes to take charge. I don't know if it's because of how I was brought up or just my innate nature, or maybe because of that "middle child syndrome". I can be a controlling condescending person too and a handful at being a perfectionist. In this journey of "self-realization", I guess I'm learning it the hard way.And like my friend Geens said -- "it's not the fall that's the issue it's getting back on." I just hate to be the one to say "I told you so". So now I guess the better thing to do is to keep mum. But it still doesn't mean I don't give a damn, although there are some days I just wish i didn't.

**current theme song as of the moment: **
Beautiful - Nine Days
You're beautiful, just like Mary's son,
You spin around me like the Earth to the Sun...
And everything is a word I need,
Because without it I'm just like a disease
Slowly fading...

Could it be that you want more than your place in the Sun?
Could it be you've reached the end and you've only begun?
I will not waste my time here,I will not waste my life here,
Waiting for you...

You're beautiful unlike anyone,
And Like a whisper and a breeze you were gone.
You're everything that the heart would sing,
And now without you I'm just like a disease,Slowly fading...

You were faded,
Overrated,
But you're beautiful this time...

Could it be that you were more than your place in the sun?
Could it be you've reached the end and you've only begun?
I will not waste my time here...
Cuz' you're faded,Overrated,
Cuz' you're beautiful this time...
You're so beautiful this time...
Yes you're beautiful this time...Y
You're so beautiful...

STARE!

Stoner Bear

Boohoo. Haha! This is what major boredom does !


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mister big shot

a friend of mine sent me this mp3 of Claire Bradey's song (sino ka?!) . Couldn't help but think of it as the appropriate title for my blog.

Despite all the drama I found time to focus my energy to pay homage to my alma mater. Basketball has been one of my favorite sports and what better way to spend a rainy, depressing Thursday? Watch the Green Archers crush the Blue Eaglets..ay Eagles pala! bwahahaha (despite Yeo's panggugulo) !

Also yesterday, we proved to UE that despite the rematch, we could still beat them, tambak din (despite Tang and Arana's olatzs performance) ! May pa-banner banner pa sila na : UE Lumalaban ng Parehas (or something like that)... .uhm, Karen if you're reading my blog... NO OFFENSE! PEACE TAYO heehee !



So now my dear bloggertsz I leave you with my favorite pic -- (thanks to my bro)

high and dry.

funny how a sudden burst of outrage changes the course of history.
i have never felt so close yet so far in my whole life. could this be my wake-up call?
so many obstacles, so many hindrances. too many pillars and walls, too many hurdles.
not so far away a soul cries for this to all stop, to give up the fight. do i concede? should i concede? maybe tomorrow. too distant from now.

i admire people who can make a stand for what they really want. who hate to be confused. who refuse to be sucked in the whirlpool, who would rather paddle away from the waves.

self-control. is there such? or are we just trying too hard. . . i have to remind myself to breathe.

i hate how i get my hopes up when i hear the phone ringing. thinking. wishing. hoping. this is all but a nightmare i have gotten myself into. learning to be adamant when deep inside i will crumble, i will stumble.

is forever a lie ? how did i ever get to become so needy? THIS needy? (banging my head on the wall now!)

stupid.

yo soy muy tonto!

nicotine is my best friend. drowning, floating... in limbo.

Stupid
Night lift up the shades let in the brilliant light of morning
But steady me now for I am weak and starving for mercy
Sleep has left me alone to carry the weight of unraveling where we went wrong
And all I can do to hang on, to keep me from falling into old familiar shoes
How stupid could I be
a simpleton could see that youre no good for me but youre the only one I see
Love has made me a fool set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak except to cry out and wait for your answer and you come around in your time speaking of fabulous places create an oasis that dries up as soon as youre gone
you leave me here burning in this desert without you
Everything changes everything falls apart
I cant stand to feel myself losing control
In the deep of my weakness I know

GO FIGURE.