beautiful

I've always been that person who likes to take charge. I don't know if it's because of how I was brought up or just my innate nature, or maybe because of that "middle child syndrome". I can be a controlling condescending person too and a handful at being a perfectionist. In this journey of "self-realization", I guess I'm learning it the hard way.And like my friend Geens said -- "it's not the fall that's the issue it's getting back on." I just hate to be the one to say "I told you so". So now I guess the better thing to do is to keep mum. But it still doesn't mean I don't give a damn, although there are some days I just wish i didn't.

**current theme song as of the moment: **
Beautiful - Nine Days
You're beautiful, just like Mary's son,
You spin around me like the Earth to the Sun...
And everything is a word I need,
Because without it I'm just like a disease
Slowly fading...

Could it be that you want more than your place in the Sun?
Could it be you've reached the end and you've only begun?
I will not waste my time here,I will not waste my life here,
Waiting for you...

You're beautiful unlike anyone,
And Like a whisper and a breeze you were gone.
You're everything that the heart would sing,
And now without you I'm just like a disease,Slowly fading...

You were faded,
Overrated,
But you're beautiful this time...

Could it be that you were more than your place in the sun?
Could it be you've reached the end and you've only begun?
I will not waste my time here...
Cuz' you're faded,Overrated,
Cuz' you're beautiful this time...
You're so beautiful this time...
Yes you're beautiful this time...Y
You're so beautiful...