wala ka talagang kwenta.

The words are stuck in my head...reverberating in my ear. looming... a cloud of unconsciousness. I wish I could stay in bed all day and sleep and never wake up. Okay, before you think im psycho(maybe i am..a bit...)i've got my reasons. how way harsh are the words when you hear them from someone you love. that all the things you've put up with, all the things you've sacrificed...will all be defined in one moment of fury and in those words...
wala ka talagang kwenta.

when is it time to move on? i need divine intervention...now...before i totally go insane.

shitty days.

There are shitty days...PMS-ing, stressed out and nobody to help you out. That was my day yesterday. For some reason (PMS is the reason!), I was so stressed out yesterday. I left the house early hoping I could get to work early (I left the house at 9:05!) but alas, it took me forever to get an FX as all the FX's available were those going to Ayala. Got to the office around 10...kainis! My officemate Honey said it was traffic because of FPJ's wake at Arlington Pasig. Shocking news to all especially the MASA and the showbiz industry as FPJ suffered a stroke last Saturday, as Star News said, while he was drinking beer with his friends.

So there I was yesterday stressing out at work (I was battling if I should head over to Mega to buy the freakin Ice Cream scoop which I had reserved),my boss asking for updates,and the super stressful Christmas party planning. Which Manager, in his right mind, would warn you about the change in the menu price 4 days before your party!? And to think I was even at Italianni's Libis Monday...he could've warned me. Oh well, at least we got 20% off.

And then there's this Indian customer of mine who's been harrassing me! He left a dozen messages in my YM asking if I was there, kesyo he has 100K orders for cards,ekek..sabay he left 2 audibles..the one that says -- I love what you've done with your window..and the one that says She loves me, she loves me not..ekek. And to think he's been asking for freakin quotes, sent me a PI already but never orders! TANGINANG BUMBAY YAN!
No offense, I have my share of Indian friends and I love them to bits pero tong bumbay na to talaga ibang lebel!

So I was in a rush to get home coz I had to bake cookies (yes,I bake, I'm selling half a dozen cookies [chocolate chip!] for P120.) ..bili na kayo! =) ... had to maximize my time as I had to do the laundry (can't trust the maids to do them for you!...my precious Zara khaki [dark] pants are faded already.tangina yan.) , watch The O.C. and Sex and The City.

Don't you hate the feeling when you're sorta waiting for a call that doesn't materialize anytime soon? I..get tired..of waiting...for things...that...will...sorta...seem...to...not...transpire...anytime...SOON.

Well, have to dash to Mega now to buy my freakin' exchange gift.

self-portrait.

And all I ever wanted was for it to happen, but it never did.
It seems like the detour taken will stop at a dead end.
Mixed up, messed up. Like the cookie batter in a mixer. Full speed.
Tales of broken records and dizzying heights.
A sugar high a bittersweet cry.
Tangled up in lies, I think it's time to wake up.

flea control.

we found out days ago that hope has a flea problem.
so to prevent it from infecting our other dogs, we had her treated.
she now has to wear this collar to prevent her from licking herself (that didn't sound so right)...as she loves to like or as we call it, pedicure her paws.
poor dog had to sleep in the living room and was crying last night, begging for me to take her upstairs in the comfort of our air-conditioned room.
i had to put the industrial fan in front of her to help put her to sleep.
what a baby. she keeps on bumping around stuff coz of her collar. poor little hope. 2 days more to go til she can take a bath and get rid of her neck brace.

john and i had dinner at Shanghai Bistro last night at Eastwood. Food was ok..still different from authentic Chinese food. I have this thing for barbecued pork buns...(mini siopao) it has become a standard for me to determine if the resto's good or not. We probably won't be going back there anytime soon... not unless 2 dimsum hungry friends come along for an eat-all-you-can dimsum fest.

what to do on a long weekend? I'm dreading the coming work week...it's going to be a long week again for us (work this saturday!!!). til then.

pics of my tortured dog.



hellooooooowhhh 



help get me outta here! 

i got memo-d

yes, i just received my first ever memo. im currently not feeling well. i have a very sore throat and i can feel the phlegm in my lungs just waiting to be expelled. i drank a pitcher of water yesterday and will be drinking 2 more today. have to flush out toxins. so this weekend will definitely be a DETOX weekend for me. no drinking. alas. john and i were supposed to be celebrating our anniv today. but with me being sick and the typhoon YOYONG coming (where is it?!),it'd be best to stay indoors.

anyway, back to the memo. my boss sent a mass memo to us sales people for being
über slow in correctly filling out a Sales Order form. I swear i did it correctly.. or maybe yesterday i was just too much of in a rush to check. i wanted to go home so badly as my throat was hurting like hell.

my eyes are burning. there's a thermometer in my left armpit as i type...im feel like im deteriorating...my mom just got home with my STASH. thermometer and drugs. ahh. yes. nothing like those drugs to give you that placebo effect.

37.5... i'm officially sick.

here, some pictures goofing around. i miss by bebe =(


goons...



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